Ayman and Ammar

Called to speak to Ayman and Ammar. Sigh... Ayman is 6. I missed his 6th birthday... am I that much of a workaholic? I can't leave for Penang anyways, cause I'm doing my DPA course. It sucks big time that I'll be missing both Ayman and Ammar's birthday.

Parenting is hard. I hate the part where I miss much of their life. Is it because of this choice I made? Somehow or rather, I can't answer this question. At times I feel that I may be a workaholic, but at other times, I think back about Daddy and his dedication towards his work and I feel justified. The reason for all this is for my kids. I want to be able to give them something better... but if I'm not around them much, then what kind of a mother am I?

I guess this is another of those feeling pity and down for myself moments again. I wanna go do my assignment.

I just miss the kids too much...

Sigh...